It was six years ago when I fell under his spell. I pass his home every day on the way to work but I had long ago lost hope of ever seeing him again. And now there he was, asking me how I was doing. I said I had divorced, living on my own. It took him some time to answer as he was in a relationship. I never thought a man like him would actually date someone and commit. So I admitted I was in a relationship too but missing something. (Something like him.)
He didn't say much, but the things he said sent a warm rush through my body and left me feeling restless. And he smiled. After all those years he smiled to me. He was always so serious, a bit psychopathic and I remember I loved to make him smile.
I also remember he didn't like biting, his eyes turned black if I didn't obey him. And he didn't like me pushing him when we walked. He was always in control, the original dominant male.
Oh God, what should I do.. I always fall for the notorious who can never ever be trusted. Who can never ever be loved. But perhaps I am like that myself?
Suddenly I feel alive again. I can't wait for him to call.
But I would like him to stay in the shadows because I do not want to fall in love with him. He could never be trusted, loving him would be pure pain.
But I would like to be his secret friend...
PS. In a way I have loved every man in my life, but some men I loved more and he is one of them.